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Today I say God is wonderful for thus far we have come  Rigz turns 15 and we are gladly rejoicing in the doing of the almighty.  On a day like today 15 years ago you came to the world and made your position in our family known, the first in all and the last by name; Warigia. You are the child that God chose to use to make me take the big step from being just me to being a co-creator with Him, I am humbled that He indeed chose to give me that great responsibility to care for His most precious gift; for you indeed are precious, beautiful, loving and Gods perfect gift to our family. As you turn a year older today I thank God for the far He has brought us and continue to pray that He blesses you abundantly, with more beauty, cheer and favour, may you grow in His love and wisdom, may you conquer all and may you have limitless opportunity for His glory and praise. Today I rededicate the promise I made to you on that day you were born that I will be the best I can be for you, t

Today I kissed the devil, or is it I left the devil kiss me? Why do I have to feel so bad about something so good? Why does this wrong thing I do seem so right? The adrenalin rush, the excitement and the oomph feeling are incomprehensible? In the arms of the devil I felt safe and secure, they say the devil is in the detail, I will spare you that detail. The devil is a liar and has ugly horns, that's what they say. Oh, they are so wrong, sometimes he comes telling truths and looking so hot. The devil lives within my mind, he comes out in desires long barren and forgotten. He comes when I see all these wrong things and they seem so right. he does not slither like a dangerous snake or hide in the bushes ready to spike. Oh, he comes in confidence and swagger, he is smooth and sweet. Before I know it I am inviting him to my table and did I say he does not disappoint, the gentleman he is. I tell you it is only after you have kissed the devil, long after the snake has taken its form

The phone rings and I hurriedly pick with a smile coz I knew you would feel the smile over the network, but alas it is not you. what a wasted effort, the telemarketer must think am a very happy person. The whole day I spend my time looking at the phone willing it to ring, hoping it is you, oh it is not, the third ring from the church reminding me of the parish commitment I made, how am I going to tell the priest we cannot make it, this is the third time I have to make an excuse for us. I have to let go accept you are never coming back. I hear a doorbell and almost break my leg rushing to open. I tell myself, your battery ran off, you were arrested, mugged, robbed off your phone, lost your phone etc., oh the trust I have in you. Its the girls scouts selling cookies, I give them some coins and they say we had promised to attend their parade. what can I say? I say yes we will be there for both of us even though I do not believe it. The whole night I keep vigil listening every time I he