You left Forgive me I still wait
The phone rings and I hurriedly pick with a smile coz I knew you would feel the smile over the network, but alas it is not you. what a wasted effort, the telemarketer must think am a very happy person.
The whole day I spend my time looking at the phone willing it to ring, hoping it is you, oh it is not, the third ring from the church reminding me of the parish commitment I made, how am I going to tell the priest we cannot make it, this is the third time I have to make an excuse for us.
I have to let go accept you are never coming back. I hear a doorbell and almost break my leg rushing to open. I tell myself, your battery ran off, you were arrested, mugged, robbed off your phone, lost your phone etc., oh the trust I have in you. Its the girls scouts selling cookies, I give them some coins and they say we had promised to attend their parade. what can I say? I say yes we will be there for both of us even though I do not believe it.
The whole night I keep vigil listening every time I hear a car, I peer through the curtains to see, it is not you. As the day breaks it hits me, I have been waiting for too long, the wait for a day has turned into weeks, months and now years, I have to let go.
I hear you found another and are well, I only wish you told me sooner so I did not have to wait in vain. I still peer through the curtains to see if it's you even though I know you are not coming back that's the trust I had in you.
Today I made a resolve, I will only think of myself, I will call you and ask for forgiveness, for you have to forgive me for putting so much trust in you yet you are only human. I will ask you to forgive me for believing in you so much even when I had a reason not to. Mostly forgive me for loving you too much and in so doing letting you go.
The whole day I spend my time looking at the phone willing it to ring, hoping it is you, oh it is not, the third ring from the church reminding me of the parish commitment I made, how am I going to tell the priest we cannot make it, this is the third time I have to make an excuse for us.
I have to let go accept you are never coming back. I hear a doorbell and almost break my leg rushing to open. I tell myself, your battery ran off, you were arrested, mugged, robbed off your phone, lost your phone etc., oh the trust I have in you. Its the girls scouts selling cookies, I give them some coins and they say we had promised to attend their parade. what can I say? I say yes we will be there for both of us even though I do not believe it.
The whole night I keep vigil listening every time I hear a car, I peer through the curtains to see, it is not you. As the day breaks it hits me, I have been waiting for too long, the wait for a day has turned into weeks, months and now years, I have to let go.
I hear you found another and are well, I only wish you told me sooner so I did not have to wait in vain. I still peer through the curtains to see if it's you even though I know you are not coming back that's the trust I had in you.
Today I made a resolve, I will only think of myself, I will call you and ask for forgiveness, for you have to forgive me for putting so much trust in you yet you are only human. I will ask you to forgive me for believing in you so much even when I had a reason not to. Mostly forgive me for loving you too much and in so doing letting you go.
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