What we say without saying

In English we say: "Why wasn't I enough?"
But in poetry we say:
"I wore the masks you chose for me, swallowed the words you didn't want to hear, and built myself around your anger, yet your eyes never softened when they looked at me."
In English, we say: "You didn't reply."
But in poetry, we say: "Your silence said what your words couldn't."
In English, we say: "I overthink."
But in poetry, we say: "I replay your words a thousand times, searching for a meaning you never meant."






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