Explain it to me like I am a two year old


Why should my heart skip a bit when I see your face, why should it do this even when my conscious self is asleep and my subconscious is in control.  Why should I continue thinking about you long after you are gone. Explain why I keep coming back even after you have said it is over.  Why should my heart go on singing even where it should be mourning. Why do I keep passing that place where I first saw you smiling, then I thought it was at me. Why do I still want to believe the smile was for me even after my mind has understood it was just a trap a snare to lure me to you.  Explain my dear why I cannot see another when I know I can never be yours. Why do I still wait eagerly for the phone to ring though I know you are never calling again. Your number from my cell I need not delete for I know it off head.  Explain to me why the only smell I know is of your cologne, mixed with sweat and why it is the sweetest smell for me.  Tell me my dear why even when I ask all these questions the answers are with me.


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