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At some point, something gotta give or you break. You can only persevere for so long. They say patience is a virtue, I say sometimes you need to take the bull by the horns at exactly that time it presents its horn. Today I may tell myself to wait, do the same tomorrow but before long it will be inevitable to wait any longer. Like a baby who has to be birthed the events will take control of time, of all wishes of personal thoughts I will no longer have the energy to stop the mechanisms of nature. Like a flooded river that has found its path, all will be washed on its way. It is usually at the breaking point that we rejuvenate and gain renewed strength. It is at our weakest points where breaking is gonna happen.  It is also at this point where we gather all we have, pick up the pieces and make the best of what is left. Today I want to spread these wings, they are fractured and broken, weak and fragile but I still got some inner strength and determination. Slowly they will regain t...

You have just met him, your heart beats faster, you think its magical, when was the last time you felt like this? you ask yourself, its been years, you even thought it was no longer possible. but here it is again the adrenaline rush, the quick breathing, the weakening of the knees the whole package, its indeed magical, after all these years so you open up and welcome the new feeling. FOOL. You are a fool, you have covered your heart with bandages and this new feeling derails you to think you are ok. The bandaged parts have not healed yet, you just covered them with these clothes on adhesive, underneath, the wound still oozes with pus. You have never changed those bandages or cleaned the wound, your heart is rotting. Girl  your hearts been broken and bandaged so many times it looks like a poor drawing from a kindergarten art class, smeared ink and paints all over the paper. You no longer know which woulds are fresh as repeatedly the old ones are scratched bare before they are ab...

As I write this am seated at my favourite couch, I should be working out to reduce this holiday fat but I am doing my favourite pass time procastination. The hardest part of waiting is not knowing what or who you are waiting for is aware you are waiting. While you are busy raving up and down checking the time every few minutes that seem to stretch more than the usual sixty seconds per minute, wondering why its taking them so long the awaited is not even aware and is calm and gently cursing why time flies so fast. The worst part of waiting is not knowing whether the other is arriving at your station. Waiting is the ultimate test of patience and hope,  you wait in the hope that, one the awaited will arrive, that they are coming to you and that you are at the right pace, now picture that. The one whom you are waiting for has all options you can think of and more chances maybe you are not one of the options or are at the wrong place and woe to you if you are on the wrong time. Al...

As a woman you need to surround yourself with fellow women of strong character, your to go to peeps, your shadow and your light in darkness and this is why........ 1. For yourself - You need a true friend, someone you can put your guard down with, you need someone not afraid to kick your ass and ask you to get up when you are having BS or behaving like an ass. Someone to cry with when you break your toe nail, someone to walk with you in this maze of life. You need that one pe rson that will drop everything and be on your side and stay there even when you insist you want to be alone, someone who will push you because they know your potential and will not accept mediocre from you. You need someone who will tell you, that fifth child your planning to have is a very bad idea because they know your youngest is still in diapers and understand your situation. Yes you need someone for you. 2. For your partner - you need someone to let them know you are special and will kick...

Happy birthday Rigz as you turn 13 today Where did time go?, I ask, when did you grow? As you officially enter teenage Rigz, I want to repeat the promises I made to you when you were born, be your mother to care tend and nurture, your friend for a shoulder to lean on your supporter and champion in all you do and your confidant. As you enter this age that separates you from childhood and veers you into adulthood, I want you to remember that I am your compass when you get lost think of me and you will know your true North and from hence you will get your direction back home. I want you to know that your friends may seem more important than us now and its OK but remember the values you have learned and don't sacrifice your character so you can look trendy, sometimes its OK to stand alone on firm ground. As from today you start a journey that may have turns and bends unfamiliar, ask and seek guidance, there is no shame in not knowing. Other hobbies will start interesti...

Day by day I think of no other and as night nears,  I want you nearer .  If a kiss is what you want,   be it there or anywhere else  You have it my honey  For I want you to drink from the well of my pit. My bosom heaves with wonder,  as I await that tender touch  and when you touch me there,   I know I will not dare breathe again I had the taste,  And all nights, I dream of sucking it with my mouth A man reserves his true and deepest love,   not for the species of woman,   in whose company he finds himself electrified and en kindled,  but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy Then we will wait patiently for that day of wonder,  when we shall not speak but feel,  And let our hearts talk to each other A flower cannot blossom without sunshine,  And man cannot live without love,  I love you and you are my sunshine

Dear God as my children start a new term today, guide protect and lead them to have a wonderful time with their friends and teachers. They spend more time in school than at home and so I pray that the school will be a friendly place for them and their friends. Let them grow in learning not just the subjects that grow the brain but also the values that grow the character, let.them learn the virtues that will make them walk in your spirit and be right with their teachers and fellows. Grant them good health of body and mind and a firm belief in you. Lord help their teachers to have the patience to deal with their activity and impatience and the wisdom to guide them in the right path. Help me to play my part and support their endeavour. Thank you for your continued love. For this and much more I pray. Amen.