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 My mother has gone through pain, I feel it physically I see it in her eyes, but my mother is a strong person.  My mothers childhood is a blur up until she got married to my dad its difficult to decipher what happened to her, I know she lost both her parents when she was very young, her mother maybe when she was like 6 or 7 and her father who was already absent working in Nairobi before she was a teenager maybe at 11/12.  The pain of her childhood having to care for her younger sister and to live with relatives is something she does not talk much about.  My mother was married when she was 16/18 (I don't know for sure I just guess from calculations in history) in the year 1956 her marriage to my father was not out of love but out of necessity at the height of the emergency (1952-1958) being an orphaned girl with no protection (male protector) as her elder brother was in Nairobi. My father himself only a few years older was a good choice as he was a student and that meant a good cath

 Today a new chapter in our lives begins. My child my firstborn, my baby my sweet Warigia is no longer a child but a young adult. Sherlyn Warigia aka Rigz turns 18 today drum beats .............  I thank God for the grace of being a mother He chose me for this wonderful child His gift to me wrapped in the most wonderful person I ever knew.  God you have been faithful, you have heard each cry and answered each prayer, you have directed my path in this journey and I say, Ahsante Baba. Your Holy Spirit has been the guiding principle that has lit the path we have taken and through His divine wisdom guided me to make the right choices for this child and for this, I say Ahsante Muumba. Your son has been the gentle reminder of the sacrifices he made on Calvary for me and mankind and His example has made me learn to sacrifice and carry my cross obediently and for this, I say Ahsante Mwokozi.  I thank you, my mama, you have been a constant in this child's life, we do not know what we would

Copied from 40 days of fasting by Father CK  This is my declaration over my family: Abba Father I call on Your Name. I know the plans you have for us as a family. Plans to prosper us and give us peace. Plans that we should call on the Name of the Lord! You will let us find You and answer our prayers. Therefore I renounce, reject, cancel & cast out all evil directed towards my family by removing all uncleanness. Destroy all family bloodlines back to Adam and Eve and 10 generations ahead. We don’t allow approve or tolerate any evil to come our way in Jesus Name. Amen.

 First written on my note book in April 2020 amid the corona pandemic 1.  Thank you Jehovah for all the good things that have happened to me; life, just being alive and healthy is a gift from you and I don't take it for granted. Love, family, children, health, providence, sustenance, home opportunities, education, experiences, friends and many more.  I am counting my blessings amid fears and also during good times  2.  I thank you for all the not so good things, the bad, the ugly and the terrible; loss, death, sickness, poverty, loss of money, loss of love, pain, theft, swindling, sins committed to me, sins I committed, sins of omission, injustices to me and to others, lost time, lost opportunities, oppression, abuse, shame, guilt, the corona menace and many more.  I am remembering that God you put me through these hard times and trust you will pull me through always, I am at a better place. Even corona will end.  3.  I thank you for the things in the future; opportunities, long li

   Today 16 years ago my baby girl come to this world and our lives have never been the same. Your smile brighten our hearts, your love warms our house you are a jewel and I love you more each day. When I asked what we could do for her birthday she said she would bake her own cake (yes she has done this for the last 2 birthdays) and we just chill at home. That's the kind of person she is, likes her circle small, actually very small, I suggested she invites a bunch of friends for the party, she said she only has 3 friends. So with four friends and myself we are having a girls only party for two days. Rigz you have grown to be a strong and brave girl but you have never lost your charm, you are still the beautiful smiling baby we know. I thank God each day for giving you to me, just the way you are. You are my pride and joy. As you start this new chapter of your life, the age all women want to remain, sweet sixteen I pray that God goes before and besides you, that you may walk in

I have been always thankful for the things I have but its always at a very general point of view, so today after talking to a colleague a thought crossed my mind to put this list together of the things I am thankful for. This is going to grow and I am sure will never fill since I have so much to be grateful for. 1. Health   I am 44 years old, all my faculties are pretty fine, I hear well, I see well, I am fully healthy I can walk I can run I can use pretty much of all the parts of my body after all these 40+ years. 2. Love I am talking of being loved and loving back and I have had this experience in all its forms, in the naive thinking of love solves all heals all and all the shenanigans, in the intelligent and calculated form of give and take and in the understanding of maturity that it is ok not to have it. 3. Family My children are my joy and happiness and I already forgot how to live without them, my mama is my pillar and strength and my brother and sister add to the equat