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Forgive Me for Liking You too much, I'll forgive You for not liking Me enough.. Forgive Me for the loud racing of My Heart, I'll forgive You for not hearing it. Forgive Me for finding You amazing, I'll forgive You for never noticing.. Forgive Me for wanting to be with You more than anything, I'll forgive You for avoiding Me.. Forgive Me for not being able to let go, I'll forgive You for never holding on.!!  copied

Why should my heart skip a bit when I see your face, why should it do this even when my conscious self is asleep and my subconscious is in control.  Why should I continue thinking about you long after you are gone. Explain why I keep coming back even after you have said it is over.  Why should my heart go on singing even where it should be mourning. Why do I keep passing that place where I first saw you smiling, then I thought it was at me. Why do I still want to believe the smile was for me even after my mind has understood it was just a trap a snare to lure me to you.  Explain my dear why I cannot see another when I know I can never be yours. Why do I still wait eagerly for the phone to ring though I know you are never calling again. Your number from my cell I need not delete for I know it off head.  Explain to me why the only smell I know is of your cologne, mixed with sweat and why it is the sweetest smell for me.  Tell me my dear why even when I ask all th...

Day by day I think of no other and as night nears I want you nearer and if a kiss is what you want,  you have it my honey, for I want you to drink from the well of my pit. My bosom heaves with wonder as I await that tender touch, and when you touch me  I know I will not dare breath again I am electrified though it's so calm. I had the taste, and all night, I dream of going back there to devour of that great place where I first felt warm A man reserves his true and deepest love, not for the species of the woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and en-kindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy Then we will wait patiently for that day of wonder when we shall not speak but feel and let our hearts talk to each other and our souls as they wonder meet each other far yonder A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and man cannot live without love, I love u and you are my sunshine Some parts are copied or adapted

Most often than not we get lost in the things that we do as routine, working hard to achieve goals, loving family and friends, keeping relationships and just moving on with life.  What we don't stop to think is are these things really things we love to do? Do I love the work I diligently give my all in  or am I doing it for my daily bread? Since we have to eke a living anyway we get lost in doing what we do day in day out even if it bores us to death.   We hate some aspects of our lives, relationships, commitments or even routines but we do them anyway.  There is nothing wrong with doing all this as we have to get by, however, choose something you love to do and dedicate time and energy to do it once in a while.  Do this however tired or pressed for time you are.   After sometime when all else is no longer useful, when you have had all the money you needed or lack it, when the kids are all grown up, when the marriage or relationship is no mor...

The greatest command God has given us is love. Love your neighbor as you love yourself.' No other commandment is greater than this." Mark 12:31    Love summarizes all the other commands.   Jesus makes it even harder for us He says if you Love your friends that’s nothing even pagans do so, you are better of if you love your enemy Luke 6:35   Rather, love your enemies, help them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then you will have a great reward. You will be the children of the Most High God. After all, he is kind to unthankful and evil people.   So these three things remain: faith, hope, and love. But the best one of these is love. 1Cor 13:13 The Bible time and again gives us great examples of God’s immense love for us mankind.   The sum total of this love is the love our savior had for us that He went as far as dying for us on the cross. The people of Jesus’ time were the most difficult; they had stayed rooted in their wron...

I pride myself to be of above average IQ but recently I have had situations where I have questioned that very brilliant mind given some of the decisions I have made.  It is indeed hard for the kind of mind I have that has to breakdown every little detail and place it rationally in its precise correct and sometimes permanent position.  Nothing happens out of chance.  Oh whom am I kidding sometimes its better to let things be and not think too much into issues.  The more you take your brain on an override the more you get confused. So I have decided for my own sanity let some things be and have fun all the way. St Augustine the great scholar once encountered a boy trying to empty the ocean, I am reminded by his story that some things are beyond reasoning and can only be understood through feeling. At times we need to let our inner selves experience the depth of the situation instead of letting our rational minds go into zig zags. I have learnt quite fast indeed tha...

As the sun goes down and the evening nears when the shadows of life grow longer there I meet with my insane mind.  As that time comes when I see the sun up yonder and realize the day is gone then I meet with that part of me that I have been running away from. As darkness slowly peeks in to replace the light of day my mind becomes awake to all that I have been avoiding day long.  My brains running overtime trying to fulfill all that I should have while I lazed all through the sunshine. Tomorrow I will ensure that before the sun goes down I will have occupied my mind with all  these now that twist and twist around in my brain. But that is what i said yesterday and the day before that and that before this.  I just have to accept I am running mad